| I’ve been rereading Michael Singer’s book, The Untethered Soul. I remember reading it for the first time five years ago and was in awe of Michael’s ability to capture a process towards inner peace & freedom with such clarity and simplicity. Reading this book felt like being bathed in something so pure. On the surface, Michael is writing about the art of meditation as a way to find freedom from our pains & struggles . He names one of the key pieces of meditative work is to open one’s heart. Many times he encourages his readers to “just keep opening and not closing [their heart]”. I remember when reading this book the first time, I was frustrated at Michael’s message of “simply open up your heart”. It has never been that easy in my experience to open my heart, especially when I’ve spent a lifetime finding reasons to keep it closed in certain situations and often for very good reason. If you too have struggled to simply open your heart in times you really want to close it, you are not alone. Meditation is one path to cultivate awareness of when you open and close your heart, and fortunately there are others. The essence of psychotherapy is often also to help us open our hearts. With psychotherapy I often help people to feel their emotional pain and create a new relationship with it. People engage with counselling often because opening one’s heart chakra and being present with what emerges is often met with many of our own internal resistances – the sudden urgency to do laundry, or watch Netflix, smoke a cigarette, or really do anything but feel. Then shame & self-judgment at our distraction emerges and adds another layer of protection from feeling the deeper pain. With energy healing, attunement & techniques are used to balance and clear chakras. Sometimes the focus is on the heart and sometimes not. If you watched my Energy Healing at Home Series, the chakra series shows you a gentle way to open your chakras simply by offering your presence to each one. Today, my invitation to you is to start with awareness. Any time you notice yourself distracting yourself or pushing away or shutting emotions down, pause for a moment and notice your urge in that moment when that uncomfortable emotion arises. Often it’s anxiety, shame, sadness or anger. Notice what you do when you start to feel those emotions, even if you realize it 24 hours later. See if you can both notice the part of you that feels the pain and the other part that doesn’t want to feel it. Overwhelmed? Talk-therapy is a great way to do this in a supportive way. Experiment with your process of being present with your uncomfortable emotions. Notice all the different parts of you that get activated when you try and sit with them in a non-judgmental way. What method do you prefer to open your heart chakra- energy healing, meditation or psychotherapy? As always, if there’s anything else you’re curious to learn about in the energy healing world and/or how it combines with the psychological, send me a note 🙂 |
Juanita’s Blog
New! 30-Minute Reset
I’ve been percolating over the past few months about creating a weekly session for people to help them connect with their own inner wisdom & intuition. At first with COVID, there was a large decrease in the noise around us – stay home, don’t go anywhere. There was a new permission given to say no to all the commitments that we had made in our lives.
Then came the gradual reopening of businesses, going out, visiting friends and family. With that came new complications and anxieties about how to manage the many different interpretations and opinions about what is socially distant. Then came the return to jobs with other people. Anxieties started to rise. Many individuals who generally have managed stress in their lives pretty well found themselves overwhelmed.
In my own extended family I have individuals who carry perspectives from both extremes in regards to masks and social distancing. Then at the same time, I’m a therapist and I’m helping others with some similar dilemnas. It’s an interesting place to be. Fortunately I’ve had my own therapist to help me out during this time.
The biggest need I have found is that individuals are needing to find ways to reconnect with themselves and their own inner wisdom, their bodies, their spirit. The noise of the world has become louder and louder and it’s hard to even hear our own wisdom, truths, longings, and so much more. Often times underneath it all we know what it is we need and long for, but we’re afraid to say it/do it/believe it as a possibility. This is a great time to revisit old patterns that we’ve engrained into our lives that are no longer serving us.
If this is something you are craving in your life and yet are struggling to know how to do that or carve out the time for this, take a look at my weekly on-demand online 30-Minute Reset. I will send you a fresh 30-minute reset each week for you to listen to when you need it the most.
The first two (Heart Connection & Sitting with Stuckness) are available to listen to on my website.
Hope you join me! – Juanita
Racism, Fierce Women And Pleasure: 2020 Summertime Reads
So, Racism. Let’s start there because it’s the most important in today’s blog. The world paid attention after the death of George Floyd, and so did I. As a white woman I’ve been spending some time reading, connecting to others, reflecting on what I need to change and starting to make some changes. This large cultural change that needs to happen starts with each of us making a change and it feels very much like a marathon goal and not a sprint.
I’ve included a few books that I’ve read in regards to racism and one of my goals has been to continue this process, so as I continue to find ones I like, I’ll recommend them in my blog on occasion.
As I’ve started to explore my own racism and support of systemic racism more deeply, it has felt heavy and overwhelming at times. I’m a person who can go deeply into heavy topics, but I need to balance it with doing things that bring me joy, pleasure, and peace. It can feel wrong to do these things when so many horrible things are happening around us, but it is very important. For me if I spend time in joy, pleasure, & peace, this allows me to continue exploring this topic of racism and spending energy on making changes. So I’ve included 2 other books today, and while neither of these books are what I would call beach reads, I wanted to include them. But please read those beach reads! I’ve been reading them too, they just didn’t make the list today.
Today’s Books
- Born a Crime by Trevor Noah
- The Skin We’re In by Desmond Cole
- White Fragility by Robin Diangelo
- Untamed by Glennon Doyle
- Find Your Pleasure by Cynthia Loyst
Born a Crime by Trevor Noah
This was my favourite read. This book is a gift for us all in that Trevor is able to talk about his experiences with racism and oppression in South Africa with candor and humour. He talks about the complexities of racism within the black community and the racist and sexist systems built by white South Africans. Racism is not hidden in South Africa. In Canada, we like to spend time looking at other countries racism and ignoring our own. This book helped me reflect on what lies beneath the surface of our systems here in Canada. I had mixtures of laughter and tears while reading this book. You will end this book loving his mother and in awe of Trevor Noah.
The Skin We’re In by Desmond Cole
If you’re a white Canadian (and especially Ontarian), if you read any book about racism, I’d recommend this one. Desmond is a black activist and writer based in Toronto, Ontario. He names how the the Canadian media consistently omits the racism happening in our own cities and country and focuses on what is happening in the USA. He details a month by month account of 2017 and racism and systemic racism he challenges in the school board, with the police, in major newspapers and provincial & federal agencies.
As a white woman I realize that I’ve had the privilege of choosing not to read the news when I don’t want to and also the privilege of feeling safe with the police and other agencies. This book was such a gift in that it wasn’t some random facebook article and you’d never find it in the big media outlets because of who owns the big Canadian Newspapers and Media. Read it! And then reflect on which systems in your life you need to hold accountable for change.
White Fragility by Robin Diangelo
This is THE book that I’ve seen as recommended reading on anti-racism. Full disclosure, I haven’t read it all. It’s very helpful, but it’s written by an academic and you can tell. She has lots of videos online. I recommend this Youtube video as a start and then take this book chapter by chapter as she explains what white fragility is and how it shows up in our lives. My understanding is that white fragility shows up as a feeling of defensiveness that white people have when black people name that white people are acting racist. There are feelings of denial and shame. Robin shares how most white people aren’t racist in the conventional sense of hating black people, but that white people are complicit in keeping systemic racism in place by our silence about oppressive behaviours.
Robin asks us to notice our reaction when white or black people get angry in a large group. How do we perceive when men or women get angry in a group? Who’s the loudest? Who’s silent? Who ultimately gets heard?
I read a great facebook post that was shared through the myriad of threads that encouraged us all to reflect on the many forms of fragility in our lives – male fragility that arises with the request for equal pay among genders and the #MeToo movement, or the extensive heterosexual fragility when homosexuals were asking for the right to marry too and not be persecuted for their sexuality. The list goes on and on. What kind of fragility do you have in your life?
Untamed by Glennon Doyle
This book is raw, honest, heart-open writing. A friend had listened to the audiobook and recommended it to me (Thank you!). Glennon describes her pattern of writing books and then realizing afterwards that she no longer has the same reflections about her life. It seems that after this book (and me now following her now on Instagram) things have shifted for the better for her. She was/is? a Christian woman who was committed to her faith and her husband. She then worked through a period of his infidelity and after committing to stay, she met Abby Wombach (famous soccer player) at a Book Event and realized that she was attracted to her. She writes about this experience and ultimately her decision to divorce her husband and marry Abby.
She also talks about the realization that if she listens to herself, she is always guided about what to do that meets both her and society’s higher needs. This is what psychotherapy often does too. Our society has been built on telling people they need to go outside themselves to find the answers to their questions. This starts in parenting and our school systems and culture. What if you really could trust your own instincts? Or as Glennon infers, “What if you are really a wild cheetah but you’ve just been tamed? What if you started the practice of untaming yourself?” The focus of the book is on women, but it could be applied to any gender. She is also ahead of the curve of most white people (including me) in regards to racism and reflects on her own journey.
Find Your Pleasure by Cynthia Loyst
I happened up on this book at my local library and was introduced to Cynthia Loyst, who created a beautiful coffee-table book about simple ways to mindfully choose pleasure in your life. This book isn’t a must read, but a gentle reminder and inspiration to nourish ourselves and experience joy. When we do this we create greater space for growth within ourselves and compassion for others.
Phew! That’s a lot of books. I hope that I offered you a little inspiration as you either start or continue your conversations about racism with friends and family, and to also give yourself permission to have some pleasure & nourishment too along the way and within the greater context of the pandemic and all the extra stresses that it brings too.
Spiritual Resources During This Pandemic
For those of you craving a few ways to explore your spiritual side during this pandemic, today is your lucky day. Whether you label yourself as more spiritual or religious or somewhere on the edges or inbetween, here are a few ideas to explore spirituality more deeply during this pandemic. What’s your go-to spiritual resource during this time?
1. Ram Dass
Using your current situation as your spiritual path
My husband recently shared a great talk about Dharma with me (see link below). In essence, one way to understand Dharma, is that we can use whatever situation we’re in as our spiritual path. Ram Dass is most famous for being a Harvard professor (formerly Richard Alpert) connected to Timothy Leary. After experimenting with psychedelics, researching their possible contribution to expanding one’s spiritual path, and then later getting kicked out of Harvard, he found himself fully immersed on a spiritual path after he met is guru in India. If you’ve ever listened to Ram Dass you know he is a pleasure to listen to and a naturally gifted teacher with a sense of humour.
Ram Dass’ talk – Becoming One with our Dharma
2. The Hathors (with Tom Kenyon)
A macro lens on the pandemic with ways to soften resistance to change and fear during this time.
Tom Kenyon is an American psychologist who has studied the healing qualities of sound. He also connects to spiritual figures and beings from different dimensions. One group of interdimensional beings he has connected to over the past few decades are the Hathors. For over a decade the Hathors have shared spiritual resources for turbelent times with meditations and articles (shared via Tom Kenyon). Take a read of this interesting article on chaotic nodes, and their resources for ways to soften resistance to change and fear during this time. Chaotic nodes are times on the planet when there are multiple chaotic events happening at once.
3. Religion
Grounding, connection to others and something larger than yourself (God)
If you’re religious, I’m probably “speaking to the choir”, as you know how religion can be something to help find grounding, peace, and wisdom during this time. I grew up in a Christian community, and while I don’t practice it anymore, I’ve found that a few ways in which religion can help are: 1) Being in a church community supported by others during this time 2) Reading the Bible or other spiritual texts and either doing self-reflection or connecting with others 3) Prayer in times of struggle or gratitude.
4. Nature
Connection to animals, plants, stars, and the earth.
It’s more challenging right now for most of us to spend time in nature. The pleasure of sun on our face, the grass between our fingers, the sounds of birds and animals in the night, the stars gazing down on us, our pets, the sounds of waves or wind.. the options are endless.
It’s springtime where I live, and we’re allowed to go for walks. I enjoy noticing the leaves and flowers start to show themselves slowly each day. I enjoy seeing the stars from the warmth of inside. I enjoy being with my cats and dog.
How do you connect to your spirituality during this time?
To Come Home To Yourself
A poem for you in the midst of everything happening right now.
Reference
O’Donohue, J. (2008). To bless the space beween us: A book of blessings. USA: DoubleDay.
Riding The Wave Of Big Emotions
COVID-19 Emergency Emotional Support Kit
Wow, a lot has happened in the span of a few days with the spiralling reactions and realities about COVID-19. I don’t know about you, but I’ve felt a lot of different emotions in a very short time, and I continue to ride those waves. I’ve been watching my own experience and reflecting on what has been helpful for me, and the most helpful thing is to acknowledge what I’m feeling without dismissing it as irrelevant because “other people have it worse”.
You Have The Right To Feel Angry, Sad, And Scared
If I can give you one recommendation, it’s to acknowledge your feelings, disappointments, anger, sadness, rage, fear, terror, numbness or whatever else that you are feeling. As soon as you do this, you give permission for those emotions to unwind from your physical and energetic body and your psyche instead of holding them all in. When you hold emotions in for a long time you can feel like Stephen King’s Carrie, ready to explode at the moment the threshold is broken.
Feel Your Emotions, AND Don’t Take Them Out On Others
The art is to NOT take it out on others, but to express and feel them in your own style. Fearful that if you start to feel these things that you’ll never pull yourself out of it? Then give yourself a time limit. For the next 10 minutes, 2 hours, 1 day etc, I give myself permission to feel _____________. Then I will regroup and do ____________ to shift my mood in a positive way. If you’re worried you won’t follow through on a positive activity, then plan it before you give yourself permission to feel your emotions.
Like waves, your emotions cannot be controlled. If you feel another surge of emotions, repeat the actions of feeling your emotions and then shifting them.
Ideas How To Feel Your Emotions In A Healthy Way
Here are a few ideas to get you started. Feel free to google for more.
- Scared? Go for a run, fast walk, or exercise. Hug a pillow and put a pillow along your back too. Say your fears out loud.
- Disappointed? Maybe hole up in your bed and binge some Netflix.
- Angry? Some people like to journal and others like to yell in their car while driving. I like to yell in the car (because i have family members at home) or dance – whichever feels the most natural and/or practical within my environment.
- Sad? Watch a sad movie to feel your sadness or have a bath.
Then you can ground, regroup, and maybe even brightside things if you’re feeling like that’s right for you.
Want to learn more about how to Ride the Wave of Big Emotions? Then read on.
Riding The Wave Of Big Emotions (repost)
This post was originally posted on August 30, 2018.
Have you ever watched the big wave surfers such as Laird Hamilton ride an 80-foot wave?
Big wave surfers have made it their life mission to find ways to ride the largest waves out there. On the days that the coastguard recommends people to stay out of the water, these surfers go into the water. Here’s a clip to give you a taste of big wave surfing.
When I watch surfing clips on YouTube part of me is pulled to go and become a big wave surfer and part of me wants to sip coffee on the beach while watching big-wave surfers.
Or something stronger than coffee.
When I taught Dialectical Behavior Therapy (DBT) to groups of teens, one of the key skills was, Ride the Wave. It is one of the simplest and yet most challenging psychotherapeutic skills.
Simple Explanation
Notice when you have an uncomfortable emotion rising. Fully feel that emotion and release it. Carry on.
Reality
Now here are a few common reactions towards feeling those uncomfortable emotions
or there can be fear that your rage will explode or you’ll fall apart into a million pieces
or we might just show our inner Queen and wave while we say to ourselves, “what uncomfortable emotions?” “Maybe others feel them, but I don’t.” In fact I just feel love and such gratitude.
When we try to push painful emotions away, it typically creates more tension inside us and in our interactions with others.
What Can We Do?
Learn to Surf your Emotions
You can assess what kind of emotional surfer you are and depending on your skill and experience you can often do it on your own.
If you meditate, practice mindfulness, or do relaxation exercises this can be an excellent avenue to practice riding the wave. Part of riding the wave is noticing where you’re holding emotions in your body and giving them attention. It can be noticing the resistance to allowing an emotion. It can be noticing the thoughts or old patterns and beliefs that keep you from expressing your emotions.
One notice might be the common culturally valued pattern of “keeping it all together”. We often want our children to “keep it all together” too. This belief is a barrier to feeling your emotions. Notice the language ‘keep it all together” – the phrase intuits a fear that letting out emotion will result in falling apart.
Learning to Surf With a Guide
I don’t know about you, but i’m easily distracted when i try to emotionally surf on my own. My mind creates things that are much more urgent for me to do instead. Also if you’re a master at holding in emotions, it often takes time and space to allow for things to start moving.
As a psychotherapist, this is often what I help people do. Holding in emotions takes A LOT of power and energy. If we slow down and connect to those buried emotions this can help us shift the tension in our bodies and free us from old patterns. I have had many therapy sessions where it took the full hour to allow myself to feel something deeply, and if I wasn’t paying for the session, I would’ve ended it early and buried the emotions for a little longer (maybe a decade).
Like choosing a wave to surf, riding an emotional wave must be your choice. No one can make you do it. Yet like learning to surf, it can be helpful to have a guide on your journey.
No one becomes a big wave surfer overnight. It’s helpful to start by putting your toe in the water, or notice if you’re drowning in your emotions and need a life preserver or someone to take you back to smaller waves first.
Riding the wave is a skill that has taken me a long-time to learn, but with the help of some fabulous guides I keep going back in the water, even when I’d rather be on dry land.
Who is this skill best suited for?
This is a practical skill for everyone, yet it can be especially helpful if you are feeling:
- Numbness or “feeling nothing” in most or all situations
- Emotional overwhelm in some or many situations
- Burned out
- Or you’re experiencing the ripple of reactions and realities of COVID-19
